wednesday night.

hey mayo,

that really was kind of startling to be nattering on tonight and suddenly see your comment when i posted mine. you must have secret passageways all throughout the place, huh? *grin*

my personal theme these past two years has been one of transformation. do you know the tarot? i've had the fool card up in my devotional space ever since the divorce, to remind me to step off the cliff, happily and willingly. i stayed on the safe paths too long. and i think i'm actually getting the hang of it now, at last.

but i marvel that transformation is played out here, too, where i hadn't expected to see it. i feel it in myself, and can trace so much of it back to this place and the alchemy of blogbelieve. i see it in others, as well. and of course, we all see it in you.

i don't think what is happening here is transformation the way we normally think of it -- the make-over, changing one thing into another (better) thing, a magician's trick. i think it's transformation the way an egg is transformed into a chick, the way a seed is transformed into green growth and bright color. it's real transformation, real magic. we are all learning how to become ourselves without fear, how to have trust in our true selves, all in our own ways.

it is astounding.

and, honestly? i'm excited to see what's going to happen next. i haven't been on the safe path since i first became "toujours" here, and i'm finding that i like not knowing what's around the corner. sure, sometimes it's a small-minded anon trying to irritate, but hey, sometimes, it's you.

well worth it, in my book. *grin*

good night, mayo. hope your feet are taking you around some interesting corners these days, happily and willingly.